Life doesn't seem to be improving for me.

The impending Brunei trip.
The demise of someone always so nice.
And my thoughts keep reverting back down memory lane.

>.<

Well, on a positive note, it means that only my short-term memory sucks.
Or maybe I just don't remember things that I don't really give a damn about.

But that is not really the reason why I feel so lousy nowadays.
Too many things happening.
Too quick.
Too sudden.

It almost feels as if I just told my buddy yesterday that we are going to Brunei next month.
In a blink of an eye, I am leaving this weekend.

Maybe it will be a good break.
Shall see about that when it all ends.

AHHHHHH.
Stressed again.

Why is it that things won't go the way we want them to?
I used to believe in fate, that everything is predestined and there is no escape from this pre-determined route.
I thought that everyone had their own particular route to follow and that these paths will cross depending on fate.
Well, I am not sure if I subscribe to this thought anymore.
It seems like my life has too many twists and turns.
Ups and downs.
Its almost like the elevator brings me up to cloud nine, before the cable snaps and brings me back down to Earth.
It's almost as if life is playing a joke on me.

Actually life hasn't been that bad to me.
It just made a drastic turn as soon as I entered Army.
It seemed at that point in time everything changed.
I changed.

>.<

I wish time stopped at the end of J2.
I wouldn't mind not having my current allowance.
I wouldn't mind being as silly as I used to be.


Sigh. Sigh. Sigh.

Maybe I should come back only when I am happier.
I make this place feel depressing.
That is not what I want.
Not according to how I want things to go.

Can someone pass me a happiness pill?

♥ 9:30 AM

NO TIME NO TIME!!

THink I will blog more when I am back from Tekong ba.

Hopefully my house desktop will be fixed by then.

Until next time,

Everytime - A1

Lyrics I post when I am out!


P.S Happy Birthday Dad. :):)

♥ 10:48 PM

STRESSEDDDD!!! I feel like pulling out my hair and not doing anything, including going back to camp.

=.=

I have no idea what to expect tomorrow.

o.o

Knolls, hidden knolls, contour lines, ridgelines.

-.-

I just want to throw my map away.

0.o

Maybe my life.

0.0

Okay. Not that drastic.
PC said: When you go down more, means you have to come up more also.

I think I went too high up. THAT'S WHY I AM SO FREAKING DOWN NOW!!!

?!@#@!@#$!%^&

Okay. Look on the bright side!
Things may be going up from tomorrow or even today!
Maybe will have phone call saying I no need book in.

Wahahahaha.

Fat hopeeee. -.-

I wish life is like reading a book.
Entertaining, but forgettable.

But nope, not all things are forgettable,


For me, at least. :((((

♥ 1:10 PM

Been almost a week since I last came here.

Mixed feelings, mixed emotions.

Its bookout day. I am going back in tomorrow. I am feeling neither relieved nor upset.

Roller-coaster. Lol. Reminds me of my endurance runs.

Why am I feeling this way. Why can't I seem to accept things as they are.
Why am I so stubborn. Why can't I just immerse myself into the future.

The world is just full of 'why's I guess.
No one has the answer to all these questions.

Why doesn't anyone know the answers?!
Ahh.
Life is really tough and hard.
I used to think life can be really simple.

Find a true love, a stable job and a comfortable home.
Well, but things often don't go according to plan don't they?

You can plan and plan and plan your life away.
Yet some point in time, there are bound to be times where the plan is wrecked, by unforseen, sudden circumstances.

Not to say, one shouldn't plan at all!
Okay. I am being a nuisance here.
I am not even sure why I delved into this topic at all.


Ahhhh.

I am not happppppy. >.<

♥ 11:09 PM

Lol!

WHAT AM I DOING HERE?

Truth is, I think I am too lazy to create a new blog, find a new template, and that I still feel quite attached to this blog. So here I am back again. I should probably change the URL. Though I have no idea what to change to.

2 weeks have passed since the period of block leave. Nothing much has changed for me. Still wishing for everyday to pass as fast as possible and the weekends as slow as possible.


AND SOC IS NEXT WEEK. :(


I think I am still unable to pass it yet. 6 min 55 sec and there is still 600m to go! How to reach the end in 2 min 34 sec?!?! Arh. I will probably need to go for RT. Waste my time. >.< %!*@*^!*@^*


Ojay. Whatever. I shall pass someday. Maybe not now only.

Wooo. Just remembered today is Deepavali. Which explains this longer weekend which I am having.
So to all my indian mates/friends, HAPPY DEEPAVALI! Even though its Deepavali, I will not bend forward to pick things up. LOL.

I probably shouldn't say that. Its a tad disrespectful.

Shall think of something else to blog ba. Feeling the sleepiness getting to me.
Goodnight k-kun.
Sweet dreams. :)

Anyway, wonder how you are doing?
Haven't heard from you in a while.
No updates on your blog either.
Think you are having your mid terms ba.
I silently wish you a *good luck*, make that many good luckS ba.
Lol. :)

A song to hear!

我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 我也可以 付出一切 也不会可惜
就在一起 看时间流逝 要记得我们相爱的方式
就是爱你爱着你 有悲有喜 有你 平淡也有了意义
就是爱你爱着你 甜蜜又安心 那种感觉就是你
我 一直都想对你说
你给我想不到的快乐 像绿洲给了沙漠
说 你会永远陪着我
做我的根 我翅膀 让我飞 也有回去的窝
我愿意 真的愿意 付出所有 也要保护你
Oh 在一起 时间继续流逝 请记得我有多么的爱你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 不弃不离不在意 一路有多少风雨
就是爱你爱着你 放在你手心 灿烂的幸福全给你
Oh 就是爱你爱着你 我都愿意
就是爱你爱着你 要我们在一起

陶喆 - 就是爱你

Last but definitely not least,
tomorrow still remains a special day for me.

:) :)

*YAWN*

♥ 3:28 AM

This is the 68th post and unfortunately, the last one for this blog.

Yes. After this post, I won't be blogging here anymore. Maybe I will blog somewhere else privately, maybe I will stop blogging all together.

This blog started with a reason, and when there is no longer a reason, there is no reason to continue here right?

It took me some time to give this up. After all, this blog was special to me.
Maybe I will visit it some times, though it will evoke some memories.

In any case, I have made up my mind. Since the last few posts were all about songs, how about we end it off with a song?

I was down my dreams were wearing thin
When you’re lost where do you begin
My heart always seemed to drift from day to day
Looking for the love that never came my way
Then you smiled and I reached out to you
I could tell you were lonely too
One look then it all began for you and me
The moment that we touched I knew that there would be
Two less lonely people in the world
And it’s gonna be fine
Out of all the people in the world
I just can’t believe you’re mine
In my life where everything was wrong
Something finally went right
Now there’s two less lonely people
In the world tonight
Just to think what I might have missed
Looking back how did I exist
I dreamed, still I never thought I’d come this far
But miracles come true, I know ’cause here we are
(chorus)
Tonight I fell in love with you
And all the things I never knew
Seemed to come to me somehow
Baby, love is here and now there’s
(chorus)

Air Supply - Two less lonely people in the world
Just that I am not one of them.

Its my first step back to recovery.
The wound is deep, but time can heal everything right?
Alright.
Good luck to you.
All the best. :)
Cheers to happiness.

♥ 6:17 AM

白色的风车 安静的转着
真实的感觉 梦境般遥远
甜甜的海水 复杂的眼泪
看你傻笑着 握住我的手
梦希望没有尽头 我们走到这就好
因为我不想太快走完这幸福 很可惜没有祝福
但爱你并不孤独不会再让你哭
我陪你走到最后 能不能不要回头
你紧紧地抱住我 说你不需要承诺
你说我若一个人会比较自由
我不懂你说什么 反正不会松手
我陪你走到最后 能不能别想太多
会不会手牵着手 晚一点才到尽头
你说不该再相见 只为了瞬间
谢谢你让我听见 因为我在等待永远

周杰伦 - 白色风车

Yes. Forever is what I want.

♥ 7:54 PM